If you've followed my other blogs you might know I've spent 14 years TRYING to get to the point where I can be honest about something terrible.
As a lover of God, it's been a horrible fight to wrestle with the reality of a certain problem and it's impact on my life, my innards, my beliefs and so much more.
As I've sought the LORD for answers and also looked the world over, narcissism is something that I have had to face. It's something which is NOT pleasant and the ramifications of being intimately related to someone who suffers from it is...well, like living hell on earth.
My own emotional immaturity has been the cause of much of my silence, and while I had the vision to share here (and elsewhere), I could not get to my OWN pain in order to process and heal it. It's as though I was frozen from being able to get to the junk.
To be very clear, I have sought wise counsel in order to know what to do. The first place? The scriptures.
When a parent, especially a mother, has a personality disorder like narcissism, it can be brutal to understand how to walk that out. The old and new testaments are full of clear instruction on how to handle parents AND how to deal with stiff-necked, foolish sorts.
The colossal battle is what on earth to do when a parent is BOTH of those things!!!??
Oh my.
Know that honoring my mom has been number 1 on my heart and has driven my actions for much of my 46 years.
The second place I've looked is the Body of Christ and the third has been any one I felt nudged to read/listen to who has info on narcissistic personality disorder. Finding principles to help victims of parental abuse (especially from a mother) has been nearly impossible...UNTIL NOW.
I'm so grateful for and to my husband who has been digging into all this stuff and sharing tidbits and resources as he goes.
In subsequent posts I'll share details of WHAT he has shared with me recently, why he shared it and where he got the information.
Stay tuned. Feel free to subscribe if you want to get notified when I post again.
~Kate M
Christmas evening
Michigan
As a lover of God, it's been a horrible fight to wrestle with the reality of a certain problem and it's impact on my life, my innards, my beliefs and so much more.
As I've sought the LORD for answers and also looked the world over, narcissism is something that I have had to face. It's something which is NOT pleasant and the ramifications of being intimately related to someone who suffers from it is...well, like living hell on earth.
My own emotional immaturity has been the cause of much of my silence, and while I had the vision to share here (and elsewhere), I could not get to my OWN pain in order to process and heal it. It's as though I was frozen from being able to get to the junk.
To be very clear, I have sought wise counsel in order to know what to do. The first place? The scriptures.
When a parent, especially a mother, has a personality disorder like narcissism, it can be brutal to understand how to walk that out. The old and new testaments are full of clear instruction on how to handle parents AND how to deal with stiff-necked, foolish sorts.
The colossal battle is what on earth to do when a parent is BOTH of those things!!!??
Oh my.
Know that honoring my mom has been number 1 on my heart and has driven my actions for much of my 46 years.
The second place I've looked is the Body of Christ and the third has been any one I felt nudged to read/listen to who has info on narcissistic personality disorder. Finding principles to help victims of parental abuse (especially from a mother) has been nearly impossible...UNTIL NOW.
I'm so grateful for and to my husband who has been digging into all this stuff and sharing tidbits and resources as he goes.
In subsequent posts I'll share details of WHAT he has shared with me recently, why he shared it and where he got the information.
Stay tuned. Feel free to subscribe if you want to get notified when I post again.
~Kate M
Christmas evening
Michigan
